feel the joy

2010-02-12T02:12:00.003+08:00

Hahahaha,i'm laughing here but crying just now.

There's no use crying over spilt milk already.

I know how what had happened and i'm not going to swallow it down myself again.

That kind of feeling you wouldn't understand.

If that really makes you happy i have no choice.

I knew we are over but i didn't know so many things actually happened.

That hurts me alot wasn't the past,it's the present.

I didn't know that you could change your mind so fast or whatsoever.

Still giving you my best wishing anyway.

But still,undeniable that i'm still missing you and loving you.

Good luck!

The sincerity wouldn't change as long as you're happy with her.

I hope she could give you what you want that you couldn't get from me.

The previous post,the current post,all yours.

But i guess you wouldn't able to read this as you don't really care.

To someone out there,

hahaha,i believe in karma,and you'll get yours soon.

You just pissed me off.

2010-02-08T22:23:00.004+08:00

Called a friend just now but she didn't pick up,i almost cry out but i managed to hold it.
I don't know why must it be like this,that wasn't the first time anymore.
What's wrong with my life?
There's so many things were unexpected and i don't want it to be happened.
Be it i like it or not,i've no choice to make a decision anymore.

Seriously,i didn't really know what happened recently,i'm like as if i'm living in my own world.
Well,i couldn't care much how people thinks how they look at me,it's up to them to do so.
Yes,there's something inside me but i don't know what happened inside me,
everything doesn't go on smoothly.

That night,i love it,do you ever know that?
The laughters,the hugs.No longer existing.
It has become tougher for me to learn and get over,and i hope i will.
What had done cannot be undone,i get this and i know once bitten twice shy.
I wouldn't want to be suffered if i have a second choice.

Our promises had become historical,they couldn't never be accomplished together anymore.
We met,we talked,we fought,we loved..at last we were aparted.
This is the fate that we couldn't belong to each other.
I thought i could trust you,and i didn't know i was hurt that much.
The moment i think of myself,i thought of you.Everything was still perfect last month.
After a blink,everything changed and ruined.

Tears dropping and what the hell wrong with me.
I supposed to be happy instead,i could have treated myself better.
I'm just daft.

2010-01-30T22:49:00.002+08:00

I knew i haven't updated for donkey years,
and now i'm back just because i'm too bored staying at home on a Saturday night!
It's really WTF and the thing is nobody is online ok.
I don't know why a dumbo like me will ended up staying at home while others are having fun right now =.=

Moreover my house is under renovation,no room and no bed,
just mattress,damn it!
NO AIR CON somemore!Arghh,i will die tonight.
I've just taken my throat medicine and flu medicine,
gonna suffer the whole night already,shit.

I've realized i'm lost.
Lost in every way,studies,love life and friendship.
I hope to grab everything back but i scare i would fall down again.
I've learn to look at brighter side,be optimistic be a cheerful gal,
trust me,
i will be back for sure! :D

2009-10-24T22:47:00.002+08:00

I lost the interest of blogging recently.
I was quite busy with don't-know-what so i didn't intend to blog.
When i wanted to blog badly,there's nothing to crap,at least for me to crap.

However,i'm here today because i feel upset and wanna apologize.
I know whatever i wanted to say you will claim it useless or nonsense.
I don't know is there any ways to let me express out my feelings again.

I'm sorry for what i've done to you for the past or now,this moment.
After apologizing,i'm stuck with tons of words.
I hope i have the chance again,and i know i've gained the chance again.

You still remember the story of the McD glasses?
That's my little secret which i think it's meaningless to you already.
I don't know whether you still have the efforts on me or not as i know you feel disappointed at me for what i had done.

Again,sorry.I hope you read this.
I do not need your understanding towards this issue.
I would rather you blame it on me,at least i would feel released.

2009-10-14T21:27:00.003+08:00

13 OCTOBER 2009

A memorable day for the three of us as we were all in the emo mode.
There was a common feature which is due to family.
Be it serious or not,we would be upset or unhappy definitely.

If you were to ask me why do we face that problem always,i would answer 'i don't know'.
I've met so many people in my entire life and i don't see the reason though i wanted to understand them always.

Today,i'm in a depressed mood again,no longer the smiling face.
I wonder what's wrong with me and where did the problem lies on?

I've been thinking over the same matter yet i couldn't get the answer!
I'm not satisfied with the answer,i'm not i'm not i'm not!

This week is a hectic week which makes me feel that i'm lack of oxygen in my brain and i hope i could sleep forever.
The schedule is tight until i cannot find a day to relax myself!
I need a rest please!

2009-10-13T20:14:00.002+08:00

I cannot withstand the pressure from outside,especially my family.
At least let me do something whati wanted to,not forcing me not to.
Once i thought my problem can be disolved yet i didn't and now it came back again.
How many times do you want to doubt my ability?
I admire others as they can do what they want,pursue their dreams/aims.

I feel lost,i'm depressed,i'm down!

Who knows the ugly truth?Me,myself with my fragile heart.

2009-10-13T00:09:00.002+08:00

I sprained my neck on Sunday so i skipped 2 lectures today.
Intended to attend school last night but then when i woke up this morning,i cannot endure the pain anymore.
I couldn't even turn to 90 degree,the first thought was like 'am i going to die?'
Then i gave up insisting going to school and had a sleep before i can go for any treatment.

Around 10 something,my mom woke me up and informed that there's a malay woman coming later to help me massage.
I refused at first because someone is coming to fetch me to watch physician then i had no choice but to let her come.

I was like screaming all the way when she massaged me,it hurt!
Moreover,i hate people touching my neck area or to tickle me!
I hug my mickey and bite his hands,nose and ears,so now all my saliva!

I'm feeling better then go out for a walk with someone.
I wanna thank that someone with my sincerity.Yo know i know ok?
Our dear secret we must keep it well.

My neck,still hurts.

2009-10-07T21:47:00.003+08:00

It's 9 plus now yet i still haven't even started to revise back my Criminal Law as there is a test tomorrow.
I'm wondering what am i anticipating for,i feel the joyous.
On the contrary,i feel the sadness too.
What's wrong with me?I supposed to enjoy my day well yet now my heart fell into a trough.
Depressed mood misled the concentration of revising!
Changing your thought of stubborn is not the work of a single day.

You are running at a great risk,when are you able to notice it?
Be it you care or not,that's the fact to face and be more realistic from now onwards.
Grasp the initiative when you think you might take it for granted one day.

What you thought isn't strong enough to pull you down from the 'high position' that you think you are in.
The thing that you wish is impracticable and so stop dreaming about it!
It is irrelevant with your future and just move on with your so called willpower.
Do not be pessimistic,buck up in doing everything and the God will eventually giving you something better.

Ooops,i'm writing nonsense again.Although it's really crappy but it's quite meaningful.
Recap all the things and realize i'm such a loser.

2009-10-05T23:41:00.006+08:00

Hmm,i've got myself to contact with a primary schoolmate again!
It was so surprise as we met each other in facebook,
and i've been chatting with him on msn for a few days.
We bullshit a lot,and he asked a question that am i a nerd as i'm studying law.
I told him i'm not yet he doesn't believe at all.

Then i was chatting with him just now and i told him i have to go and take my shower first and he drew this to me!
It's quite meaningful as we just re-contact and we still able to remember each others' name!
How great it is,isn't it?
Be it you like it or not,it's just one art piece.

Hmm,either mee rebus or mee hoon kuay?
I hope to have both which i think it's quite impossible.

Alright,i've just promised them anyway.I can have my mee rebus on Saturday wih my mom.
Just bear with it,ok?

I've made up my mind,a serious thought.

Oh ya,someone don't get jealous bah.Just endure for a little time,i promise.
I wanna have fun with you again.

For my two beloved frens,i think you might as well delete your blogs!
Not updating or what,so slow.
Just don't ever complain about me next time!

2009-10-04T00:03:00.002+08:00

Happy Mid Autumn Festival!
I've been waiting for this day to come as i can have bbq again!
I'm seriously addicted to bbq,can anyone please rescue me from that?!
Hahaha,i doubt there is.Just don't stop me!

Was tired and i hope someone would be around me now to hug me and coax me to sleep.
I love these two days!
I had fun,and totally forgot about my assignment.*phew
Have to rush it out tomorrow,studying is not easy,reading is insufficient.

Met a lot of my primary schoolmates on facebook!
It's a good thing to re-contact with them,at least i'm still able to know how are they or what.
Haha,it's hard to meet friends and hard to become close friends.
Usually,i wouldn't bother about it,lalala.

2009-09-30T23:55:00.004+08:00

Some of my friends experienced the tremor due to the 7.6 magnitude earthquake in Indonesia.
Seriously,i'm feeling upset.I don't know the reasons,don't ask me why.

I couldn't express my feelings out.
I hope the disaster can be stopped one day.
SWP told me this has been predestined,and just cherish or treasure the things you own now.

Well,i cannot brain wash myself to forget this whole incident.
I would definitely remember,and now i'm tempted to watch Tsunami.
I hope i wouldn't cry inside the cinema.

I will pray for the victims in the earthquake incident,hope they will be alright.
Googled about it,worrying and worrying.

The Ugly Truth

2009-09-29T18:51:00.002+08:00

Well,a typical storyline but then it's really a good movie among what i watched recently.
The theme between the boy and gal relationship is within expectations yet it's awesome!
The female lead was trying her best to be with the guy she wanted and then she realized not the one for her.
Ooh,so meaningful and she loves the male lead!

Indeed The Ugly Truth.We will never ever know the truth.
As they stated,'you will never know it'.
Hahaha,watched with Laine,Edwin and SWP.
It was fun and now i think i should have concentrated on my assignment!

Heyy,wait!I gonna drag my assignment again as i want to watch the wedding of Fann Wong and Christopher Lee.
I think i have to skip one of my episode drama again.*phew

Now,the ugly truth.I thought i could do it in school today and i was seduced to go home!
What the heck.

Birthday celebration!

2009-09-28T20:33:00.016+08:00

24092009

Met up with my group members for discussion then Edwin left half way.
The 4 of us finished the thing and i headed to nini's house to look for her.
Went sutera to get the shoes i wanted yet sold out,
so i bought another pair!*phew

No idea where to have lunch so headed for mee hoon kuay.
Ooh,i really miss it so much now.I must eat that again within this week!
Wahahaha,is it possible?

Cam-whore a bit while waiting for her to get the things done.
I took a lot actually,hahaha.

Hmm around 4 something,we reached Nusa Villa.
We tried to look for Guan Zhong's house instead of calling him to lead us!
So,we turned round and round and finally we found it!

However,no place to park my car so have to park at the playground there!
Omg,the weather was hot and can you imagine to walk under the scorching sun?
Yet,we fool around at the playground there.

Nini said she likes this photo because i took it very nicely as her legs are not that fat instead of reality.
Oops,my dear don't be angry.

Before really going down to BBQ,we two started to camwhore like hell.
Then,i went to lead SWP to the house as he really lost his way.
No doubt,the picture below is him,acting cute in order to cover his pimple.
It's so huge!

Here we start the BBQ.First,the guys have to be responsible to light up the fire.
Is it so called light up?Well,anyhow anything.

They are my benefactors!They were in charging of bbq-ing the food.
If i were the one,trust me,it wouldn't be cooked!
Hahaha,i'm not that serious,just try if you want.

Then half way,i found out laine was missing and i asked everybody whether did they see her,the answer no.
So i didn't also really take it serious as i thought maybe she had gone to toilet or whatever.
After that,they brought out a cake for me!

It was quite surprise!I never give a thought of it.
Now only i remember no wonder nini was so serious when i wanna open the refrigerator to take some drinks.

Here's the mango delight!Love it so much.
I think everyone will treasure/cherish the time with friends.
I feel warmth always.^^

Haha,i forgot who suggested them to take off their shirts and they really did it.
It was fun to have different posing with them.Looks great!

For my gals,they are the sweetest!No one can compare to them!
Love them love them! *hugs

My nini and my laine laine.
They put in a lot of effort trying the cake.
Thanks a lot,wahahaha.

However,the cake was then destroyed by my face as someone pushed my head onto it.
OMG,it was so super disgusting with all the cream on your face.
I ran to the guy and throw to him.I've taken down the photo as a prove in order to take revenge.
Hahaha,it was fun,i even ate the cake on my face.
It's a waste if i just throw it or wash it away,haha,
somemore it's from my babes!

There here he is.He's the one contributing place for us to BBQ and swim.
Must really thanks to him and to repay his kindness,he wanna me to take his sexy photo of his back.
I should have taken his fit muscles i think.

Trust me,it was a mess after the night.To prevent penalties,we must clean up the place.
Hmm,lack of swimming photos!
Swimming in the night and especially late night is super fun!
Hope to try it again.

26092009

On the actual birthday,went to Ayukawa to have japanese buffet.
Hmm RM55 nett per person.It's just base on your taste,i only can comment still ok.
I like the mussles and sashimi over there.It was great!

The table was 8!It's just nice as my lunar birthday on the same day.
It's fated hahaha.

Both of us were too full and couldn't move after the dinner.
I think i will ban myself to have buffet again in 3 months time!

The juice and the miso soup were much more better than another!
The sashimi will be melted once you put into your mouth.
Omg,let me recall the feeling.

Then after i reached home,i received call and jy asked me out for yum cha.
Haha,i never ever thought that she would buy a cake for me.
It's quite out of expectations!However,we just took a slice of it and give the rest to the others.
Heart her too.^^

Had fun this few days due to my birthday celebration.

I hope my friends will have their best for everything.I love them!

Hmm now left out nini who still hasn't done anything about this post.
We shall wait and see when she wants to take action of doing it.

Night peeps!

2009-09-28T01:09:00.000+08:00

I'm now studying for the test tomorrow plus facebook-ing.
Hmm i wonder when did i become so addicted to a stupid web,hahaha.
Maybe i'm stupid too?God bless please!

Will be back very soon for the BBQ night and the Ayukawa Japanese Buffet.
For related post,please link elaine.
Tons of pictures will be uploaded.
Still the same,whoever dislikes,please don't come.

Omg,i'm so tired for these few days.
Slept at late nights but woke up early in the morning.
I enjoyed my one week holidays to the max!It was fantastic. *grins
Hahaha,wait for me.

2009-09-26T09:43:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday to ME!

I wish my dreams can come true.

I wish everything will be fine.

I wish to have three more wishes!

Can i?Hahahaha

BBBBBBQ

2009-09-25T14:12:00.004+08:00

Had a birthday celebration in advanced last night!
It was fun and i realize i love my frens alot.
Thanks Nini and Laine for the surprise.
Now i admit i'm so stupid every year,the same surprise.
Hahahaha,will be back to post about the bbq last night real soon.

I LOVE MY FRENS!

I've just reached home,but going out again,
bye peeps!

2009-09-23T23:43:00.002+08:00

Now i know i'm so popular!
I should have been nominated for The Most Popular Blogger.
I think it would be quite fun if i join the competition and fool around and starting giving topics like sluts(myself?haha),bitches(me too?)or a good wife.

Oh my god,did i just mention wife?!Seriously,how old do you think you should get married?
Oh ya something undeniable is that older women will hope to get married soon after they found themselves a good-for-nothing husband.
In my eyes,women should be more independent in order to strike a balance.
I do feel sad for the shameless hussy,wahaha,that's my opinion.

I think i have to do my revision on my Public Law.
I almost forgot that the concept liberal of speaking,hahaha.
I'm afraid to hurt someone unintentionally.Honestly speaking,i wouldn't even care!

I've just told my dear Laine i would do my best and declare my love.
Yea,soon and just wait for it or else you can just keep refreshing my blog page.
I wouldn't mind and i have to thank everyone somemore due to the happiness i've got myself this few days.

Now i'm hoping for the best to come.
GOD really has to bless you.

My dear dear friend,i miss you in the look of desperate.
Hahahahaha

The women

2009-09-22T23:12:00.003+08:00

I miss you,my love.

I wanna to be cared.

I wanna to be secured.

I wanna to be loved.

A woman without a sense of security would be very terrifying.No matter how strong we are,we still seek for it.

Hmm as a woman,i will be afraid that my boyfren may think that i have becoming dislikedand avoided as old,like a pearl whose luster has faded over time and becoming worthless.
Of course i do care,and i care a lot seriously.
However,if you are meant to be getting older,you will be abandoned definitely.

Oh something have to remind,if we,as women don't really take good care of our skins,our hair or even our looks,then it's bye bye to us.
Maybe i'm superficial,think about it especially you realize when you are now at this age.
Haha don't be a out-dated woman,keep updating and upgrading,otherwise i will look down on you.

Next,security.Come on,be confident or else guys will look down on you.
Don't ever pick up the thrash that it had been thrown by others.You are not doing a good deed,maybe to you,you are!
Different opinions?!I think so and i agree with it.

Do look at yourself when your boyfren started giving cold shoulder to you.You need to consider about your outlook.
Buy a mirror and reflect.Buy more outfits and stop dressing beyond your age.
Trust me,wear more like a bitch if you can,wear less like an auntie if you want.
Hahaha i guess it would be fun!

To be loved or not,it's not decided by woman,alone.Love consists of two parties.
Be it you like or not,you hvae to face it.Women have a common weakness,that is they wanna to feel love and to be loved by the guys they love initially but not the guys who love them.
Try to wake up now and find someone to love you as much as you love him.
In my opinion,there are 2 kinds of woman,kind-hearted and wicked.Which one are you?
Showing off happiness?!Trying to catch attention?!
I will see you then.

One last thing,women have the priority but you don't!
To me,you are not even a woman. *oops!

Happy Birthday to Jean!

2009-09-21T19:55:00.007+08:00

Happy Birthday to Jean!

I think we had known each other since sec 2 and she looked like a sotong that year.
Yea,wondering why sotong because she's as blur as a sotong till now!
Hopefully she wouldn't kill me after reading.

Jean,someone very close to me yet far away as she is continuing her studies in KL.
Hahaha she will be coming back soon and she's now in JB!
Miss her so much and hope to see her soon.

I have alot of September babies to be with me.It's so sweet.
Love them so much!

Next,how's your 20092009?
Mine was really terrible.I had just realised yesterday that disappointing at someone which able to make you so sad about it.
Yea,i knew that's the end.Just that i couldn't forget the way you treated me as not even a friend.
Whatever has to stop,had stopped.Just conitnue my life,again without any interruption.
I thought my 20092009 would be the best yet not.

I strongly think that i had wasted 2 years in doing everything.
So disappointed at you.
I just wanna tell you,you are daft!

nini,Happy Birthday!

2009-09-18T19:22:00.003+08:00

Someone now is offcially a 19 year old gal!
Yea,it's her!
Well,sent her a long birthday message to greet her as she requested.Hahaha.*oops
Again,we were unable to celebrate it with you on the day itself because you have got someone special.
Hahaha but then we will send you our best wishings!
You know,i know,that's enough.
Love you my dear!
Happy Birthday!

I'm so exciting for next week.
So many upcoming events/occasions!
All on 24,25 and 26 my birthday!
Exciting to the max and i hope it will be very fantastic!

2009-09-14T20:51:00.003+08:00

I realized unhappy things are meant to be happened and it wouldn't just leave you alone.
What i wanted are much more easier than you think,do you know that?
I wonder how those husbands and wives living together under the same roof.

Yea,love again and again.
I swear that i'm busy enough yet i still have to make some amendments.
I just wanted to be myself and i've already give in,i'm serious.
Yet it will still increase your sadness and also the conflict rise up every time,where's the peaceful moments when we just fall in love?

It's less than 9 months and we had quarrelled for so many times,the sweetness gone?
Or i should have said that the passion is no longer existing?
I'm trying hard to face everything with you together,really everything,yet i became the selfish?!

I'm seriously down and i really hope someone,i mean anyone just do something to make me feel happier and i will be satisfied.

Where's the pure love?
Where's my perseverance in this?
Where's my courages?

When has it stopped?
When i began to be like that?
When can you realize?

How can i let you feel the sense of security?

Though i couldn't understand still,i hope the best for you.

2009-09-09T00:43:00.002+08:00

The clock just strike 12 and now it's 090909!

Woohoo!Hooray!
However,i'm quite upset.

So many words are hidden inside my heart and i don't know how or even where to start to tell.
Just give me some times.
Really my dear.

2009-09-07T19:02:00.005+08:00

When i was on the bus in my way back,there was a selfish passenger that i have ever seen.
He was coughing so badly as if that he's having pneumonia.
He neither cover his mouth with his hands nor tissue!
He's so inconsiderate to the other passengers and the worse was i just sat in front of him!
I was like ' ehh what the fuck,can he change to other seats or i have to change'. After that,none of us change the seat as i was really lazy moving around in the bus and it looks so damn weird.
Can you imagine that when i was listening to songs and i can even hear his bad coughing?!
It's damn serious and i really feel like advising him to consult doctor before he diagnose he has any illness.
I doze off half the way and when i woke up he's still on the bus.Damn suay today!
He's so unhygienic,so inconsiderate,so stupid.
Don't doubt,he's a guy.

Phew,he finally get off the bus earlier than me.At least,lucky a little bit?
I wish i can be more lucky.

My birthday month and i've decided to buy everything that i likes to spoil myself and i hope i can be happier this year. As usual,that seems like a bad omen,juvenile but true.

2009-09-06T21:35:00.002+08:00

That day,which makes me think of alot of things and alot of thing happened.
Be it real or not,just trust me.

Well,we had fun.We enjoyed the time together.
What's the scene if we less out any one?I seriously have no idea about it.
Love you guys!

We shared weals and woe.
We crazy,we smile,we cry.
So that's US!

Remember our Italian restaurant,George and Dragon and Permas lok lok ok?!
Waiting for the dreams to come true

2009-09-04T19:44:00.003+08:00

The yellow roses i received today,in the morning.
He told me a story about the red roses.
He said,red roses are in red colour is because there was a princess living in the castle with a soldier protecting her downstairs.Then,the soldier fall in love with the princess and the princess wanted the soldier to think of the best colour of the roses instead of white.
Yea,the soldier think of colouring the roses with any attractive colour but he felt that the colour didn't present anything of him.
So,there's a war aftermath and the soldier was killed and his blood splashed on the roses.
Then the soldier knew that only red roses can represent his love to the princess.

Rose tales
This is the red roses story that i've just google.

If you were to ask me,i would trust the story he told me.It's meaningful,indeed.
However,the roses i received were in yellow as yellow roses represent apologize.
I'm confused as i don't really know what to do.I've accepted the apology.
Be it forgive or not,i should have known better.

What a day to me,damn tired.
I honestly now don't have any idea how or where to continue to blog.
Let me think about it seriously.

2009-09-02T15:15:00.010+08:00

This will be an overdue entry of what i had done last week.
Hmm due to many reasons,now only then i update.
You know i have to resize the pictures and etc,
it's quite tough for me.(Actually i'm looking for an excuse,LOL)
Now i'm trying very hard to refresh what i did from last Monday till Friday,
give me some time yea.

Last Monday,supposed to watch Orphan with my woman,
in the end we 4 watched together.
The four are me,Elaine,Cheeyee and Guan Zhong.
Well,there's alot of thrilling scenes which made me screamed like hell,
and i bet the audiences in the cinema could hear it.
It's a great pity that the daddy in the show died.
He wouldn't be dead if he listened to his wife,but too late,that's final!

Then Tuesday,me and Jy went to neway to sing!
We sang aloot of songs like crazily.It's been a long time since i went out with her.
Eat and crazy together which makes me remind of my secondary school life.
That kind of friendship would never ever end!BFF forever!

We used student ID to enter the singing session and it's just RM8++/per person with two non-alcoholic drinks!
It's super cheap and helped us to save alot!
See you soon again,my dear!

Wednesday morning,i woke up later than i expected and rushed to school.
This is my dressing for the gals' outing as i really don't know what to wear.
Pardon for my dirty mirror,i just couldn't get myself free to clean it!
Whenever i have time,i would just spend them on facebook,blogs or whatever and never ever think of my mirror.

I don't know why i have so many unglam pictures of hers!
Haha
For her pretty photos,please link her!

We stayed for late outing in order to have dinner together.
Since the day we met,we became good frens,we seldom eat dinner together.
Have Secret Recipe for dinner,then went shopping and spent alooot!
However,we are happy,we spent our very own money.Be it you like or not,just shut up.

For more photos,please link laine laine chan!

The following day,i wear what i've bought the night before to date with my boyfren.
He's like so shock about the dressing way.Is it really that weird?!

I think still acceptable right?!

Another day we went for movie in cs.Met schoolmates and they eventually copied us to watch what movie.Damn dull.
Watched Murderer.In my opinion,almost the same storyline with Orphan,
and too of course it's also very super disguting.
I really screamed like hell to as it's too many unexpected but then me and boyfren got the murderer correct before the show ends!
I think we are quite clever,hahaha.

On the way to buy the fried oyster mushroom which i love the most,
and it's closed!!!Because of puasa or what?!
Then i need to wait for like a month?!!!I miss it so badly.

Fail to buy the fried mushroom we just headed back home to play wii.
I don't understand why i'm always the loser?!
I'm really so stupid or what i just don't care.I wanna win and better let me win!
Hahahaha,i wanna win!

I'm now actually wondering what should do now,i'm lost.
Should i give it a try or what?!
Sigh

2009-09-01T12:25:00.002+08:00

Wow,it's 1st September today!
Counting down 25 days to my 19th birthday!
Looking forward to it.
I wanna shopping non-stop,eating non-stop.
Will be back later to past my overdue entry about last week.
Off to help my mom to do some stuffs.
Bye!

2009-08-23T22:13:00.002+08:00

It is bad to wrong a good person who just intend to help.
I cannot do anything to help myself to be accused wrong.
Everyone has his own task/tasks,well me too.
From the day i wanted to rely on myself,i swear i will be iron-willed and unyielding.
Everytime I have to face it all myself,and you didn't help out.I'm starting to hate you,seriously no matter who you are to me.

I don't wish to stay here anymore,the place which doesn't belong to me.
Otherwise,i'll go mad,really mad until i may do something which you would think impossible.
In chinese got a sentence,‘此处不留人，自有留人处’.
I wish i can have a little bit more courage to do the things i like/love.
I wanna prove to myself and just myself i can do better just that i was not given any chances.

My Dear God,i wouldn't blame on you because i knew that You are training me to be the one who will not be so coward anymore.
I believe i can work it out in a better way.

2009-08-13T08:45:00.003+08:00

How long since i ever went to beach?
In my mind,beach is a relaxing place where you can throw away all your troubles.
How impractical it is.
I wouldn't care.
I know i would be easily satisfied.
At least,go there i will feel happier,much more happier.

I have my own way,my really own way.

2009-08-12T20:33:00.006+08:00

Extremely down.

It's like what the fuck.

I hate it.

How could you do this to me?

2009-08-10T00:48:00.003+08:00

I've been so busy for the past few days for my assignments.
My lecturer is damn stupid.
He just gave us one topic and gave us one week time to prepare the presentation,
which means we gonna finish our power point in one and the half week for both somemore!
He's that inconsiderate,blah blah blah. *scolding bad words

Was like rushing out all the things and asked for boyfren to help me in editing and more.
Results is coming out on Monday,
both presentation is on Tuesday and Thursday,
what a hectic week.

The photo below was edited by boyfren.
I'm loving it.
Thanks to boyfren,he's so kelian ecause he's sick and i still ask him to help me.
I know i am heartless,thanks!

Boyfren love you!

Buck up my frens!

2009-08-02T23:30:00.004+08:00

Suddenly i feel that the world is so dark,
i mean the human beings in the world.
One week before,i could still see the scorching sun,
but now no longer exist.
I couldn't understand why the problem that occurred last year would just copy and paste out this year or even every year.

How steady would a guy be,i would doubt now.
I saw it with my own eyes and i experienced it with them.
How ruthless they are now a bit way too illogical.
Have you guys seriously gave a thought that when you face difficulties or economic hardship,who was the one helping?

You guys should have known that who's the one fanning the flames,add fuel to the fire and do one's utmost to incite one against the other.
It's really time to wake up to one's error and make an effort to atone for one's misdeeds.
Some of you are really good guys and willing to help him,of course the only condition is the salary.
Yea,last week issue was like a trifle for us.
Then why should you guys fret over such a trifle?
I don't understand.Can anyone explain it to me?

I'm so disappointed at some of you whom play a fool with me or whatever.
Now i knew i was blind,ever blind!
Have you ever thought that when your wife was back in Thailand/Myanmar and you need money to apply for her visa or whatever,who was the one borrow you a few thousands?
Have you ever thought that who was the one never urge you to pay back the money until now?
Have you ever thought that how narrow minded you are just over a bumper which cost 380 bucks?
It's not the time to find out who should be held responsible.
Even if wanna find out,it's both parties' fault and both need to be liable for the losses.
Just be fair,when you are scolding others,
please look into the mirror and you will see how evil you look.

I couldn't understand why are you guys so pathetic,i really mean it.
Law by law,we have no right stopping you from changing job,but not rapidly.
You have your own choice and we just wanted you to pay us back the remaining money that you owed.
Since that you are already hired,he will definitely help you to clear the debts but then why are you resolutely oppose?
I just wanna say,i look down on you,seriously.
You are neither a guy nor a man,just a sissy.

I was tempted to ask and speak out,but i rather stand aside and look at the deeper side of problem.
We are not meant to be bullied,we just don't want to create more problems.
The scar cannot be wiped away so easily yet i believe there's a way to lighten the scar.
Every year the same timing,be it coincidence or purposely,no longer the matter.

We are really disappointed.
We will try to look at the brighter side,at least happier.
Not because of you then we feel sad,we feel hurt that we trusted the wrong ones.
We will never wrong a single good person nor let off a single bad one.
We are just tired to identify.

2009-07-29T18:08:00.010+08:00

I realized i've been eating today!
Had Mcdonald breakfast with BFFs,
then korean noodles+milk tea with laine and Chee Yee,
and just now accompanied nini to eat fried kuay tiao.
The most important is laine eat again!
Omg,i was like so curious that how big is her stomach/gastric.
Seriously,lose to her,that gal.

I am now blogging in library,school library.
I am so tired but unwilling to go home.
It's tiring to bring the laptop here and there,
somemore taking bus.

I prefer the feeling of staying here,
and listen to my classmates' lame jokes,
err or even ghost stories!
It's cool you know,
because we dare not go to toilet after ghost story sessions!
Haha,schooling is always a better choice.

I am now freaking cold as if i'm in the freezer.
I feel so sleepy in this environment even though with their noises.
Here is the place i would feel the most comfortable.
I rather stay at school and pass my time meaningless than staying at home to let my time flies!
I miss my bed,my booster and my pillows.

2009-07-27T21:00:00.003+08:00

In a workplace,the staffs need to be cooperative with the others.
A boss needs an assistant.
A GM needs a AGM,
or maybe two.
A seller needs buyers.
Nevertheless,the school area.

Is that difficult just to be more cooperate?
Come on,show me your attitude if you really wanna back out,
if not,stay away and watch the show.

I know i am someone love to complaint,
try to think further,
is it all my problems?

I wonder the main reason that day.
I believe i was blind.
Sorry my babes.

2009-07-25T21:58:00.008+08:00

Supposed to have nice discussion with the group members,
but then everyone was like not in the right mood so,
we,three gals,did the research ourselves and we found the info!
Hooray!*clap clap

We felt hungry and we just left for food!
Had Sushi King with BFF,we ate alooot.
Then shopping and snap snap.
That's the gals' priority,
isn't it?

After snapping,
she went don't know where,secretly.
We gonna find out soon!

She's always wanna snap the cute me!
Wahaha
her blog is full of my photos

what a look

we gonna snap for quite alot of times,
then only she will be normal
wahaha

me cuterrr

She was like talking on phone the half way.
We purposely snapped her aloot aloot of times!
She couldn't be funny ever.,
oh ya,abnormal too.*grins

nothing better to do to kacau her

Oh ya,now then i realized i forgot to upload the sharp face of nini.
Anyway,she wouldn't mind i guess,
and she has to know that i would just upload her unglam side.
Hahaha,so evil.

So what if you really think that who you are.
I will just feign ignorance to everyone,
especially you.
Nowhere i could express but here.
I hate being betrayed//isolated/whatever,
and i know that i wouldn't be can.

Everyone will just trying their best to perform,
nevertheless me and you.
So why not let's work hard together to overcome the difficulties？
We have to face the reality,
no matter what.

I care for everyone,i really do.
However,i don't know why,
why my sincerely always been doubted.
I hate that kind of feelings.
I shoud endure,i know but why me.

I rather work and go to school everyday,
which means i'll see you lesser.
I don't understand what's the point of you doing all these thing,
just to make yourself happier or what?

I've been very independent since very young.
I earned my secondary pocket money on my own.
The hard-earned money i would always use wisely,
because i knew if i spend them all,
i would have to eat bread or rather starve.

I've been very hardworking on my studies,
though sometimes abit way too serious.
This is because i know only studying hard i can look for a better job,
a better future,and do what i like.
I seriously need freedom from here,
i need to breathe the air outside.

Now,i am a 19 year old gal，
no longer the small kid.

2009-07-22T17:56:00.004+08:00

Finally feeling better from my stupid so called sickness.
I didn't eat any heaty food recently or even during the trip.LOL
Anyway,spent 30 bucks on the doctor.

Went Malacca with boyfren last weekend.
We just stayed near to the Jonker street.
It's actually different from the pasar malam we usually go.
Malacca is like a historical state to me/to Malaysia.
Visited alooot of places and saw alot of foreigners,
they are cute/handsome/pretty.

Photos will do the saying

our late dinner on the first night
totally exhausted

anyone can feel that i was so unwilling?!
wahahaha
just kidding,don't want to be killed

Eye on Malaysia

promote promote!

Don't doubt,
i am that short
i am a shorty+fatty

Cendol
we were so lucky
we had it just before they closed their stall

Look back to the photos,i doubt why.
Why my boyfren looks so fair in the photos?
Ok larr,i admit that i am dark.

Oh yea,we went to a restaurant the second night for dinner.
I would rather say it's shop selling western food.
I ordered chicken chop and boyfren ordered pork chop,
name of the shop should be Wok and Pan,
something like that.
The food is tasty/delicious,i was so satisfied.

Then the hotel i stayed contains the atmosphere of Baba and Nyonya.
I believe most of us watched Little Nyonya on Channel 8.
However,the wifi there was lousy!You couldn't imagine that.
You have to load for so longg to be able to view a webpage.
Anyway,just a 2-3 stars hotel,i couldn't ask for more.

Before going to Malacca,i bought a set of skin care products.
It's time to take good care of my face and skin.*grins
In conclusion i wanna say,i spent alot of money,
but i had fun,so it's worthy.

2009-07-20T22:38:00.003+08:00

Am not feeling well.
Bathed and sleep aftermath.
All due to my ulcers!Should really thank the ulcers made me couldn't eat well,
sleep well!

Feeling so terrible and i'm so hungry.
Just feel like eating porridge but who will be selling at such a late night?!
It's torturing.Damn it!

Porridge porridge porridge
I miss caini's homemade porridge,feeling so hungry.
I lost my appetite totally!!!

Boyfren i know you would do anything for me,i know you wanna buy me porridge.
It's too far from there to here.I don't want you to be that tired.
Forgive my stubbornness and sorry! *smile

Fed up fed up!Why always me?
I love to complaint!

2009-07-19T23:08:00.002+08:00

I am back!
Hmm,a fun trip with boyfren yet a tired one.
I was like sleeping all the way home while he's driving.
I just woke up at 9pm plus and now i feel sleepy again.
Shall update soon.

Oh ya,i love magic!
Love you all

2009-07-15T21:25:00.002+08:00

I've just stopped watching DVD.
Bored to the max.Arrghh.
I wanted to pack my luggage but then found out don't know what to pack.
Although just a few days,really troublesome what to bring.

Oh my darling god.
I feel so sleepyyy.I've slept for so long yet i'm tired.
Looking forward tomorrow,hope the class is not too boring that i expect.

2009-07-14T20:27:00.001+08:00

2009-07-14T20:01:00.009+08:00

Hi i am back to continue my post yesterday.
Remember i had announced that i have just got myself my bangs?
Don't puke if you really dislike me,especially you.

I was like thinking of cutting bangs the whole journey on the way home yesterday.
And i was like dozed off half way.Wahaha
Did my saliva drop or what?!Couldn't care so much

Then i delighted at the bus stop earlier than the usual i did.
I just walked in and for a hair cut.
It's so cheappp can,like almost 3 bucks!
It's been a long time since i cut a hair for 3 bucks you know?!!
Was so surprised the price and the outcome.

Actually i like my bangs.
Different style,
but definitely not acting cute

Mr.Mickey

I love mickey,i kissed mickey

This was taken this morning,
was on the way to schoool.

Went to Singapore with my BFF.We actually planned for a year.
You guys know why?!Because we just discussed and not really want to do it.
We dragged till last Thursday.After class at 1130,walked over to custom.
As for the custom,just forget it.
Here we passed the Woodlands checkpoint,Kranji mrt station.
I was like keep on snapping them secretly/in public.
Whatever,because they don't really mind.Waahaha

Forgot what she was doing
Look at her mouth!
UNGLAM,wahahahaha

Laugh laugh laugh!
We really enjoy this kind of outing

Her own photo,i stole it
but she knows of course

Hahaha,was my idea
Her braces so bling bling

The me before cutting bangs

We did enjoy that day.Our legs were so in pain,that pain.
From Bugis all the way back to Jurong east,
standing you know,peak hour.
We love eating Subway,
ehh ask us as spokeperson larr.
We offer a cheaper price,wahahaha.

Then Saturday,my mom told me that there's a new supermarket opening.
And she just went the day before to buy prawns.
I am crazy,i love prawns!!!
I suggested to have steamboat on Sunday,
then we went there to buy ingredients.
OMG,there was hell of people.I couldn't imagine.

YOU SEE!

Look clearly,snatching for longan/longans
whatever

Omg,so cheappp i know
but but but
so packed

i'm loving this japanese potatoes or whatever
STEAM IT!

my Sunday steamboat dinner

Hmm,i've updated and posted the photos.
Dont nag me le.Wahaha.
You guys must at least show up let me know you came ok?

I'm going for a trip coming weekend.
So shall update soon again.

Oh ya,my parents came to fetch me back from schoool.
And we went to have lunch and shopping abit.
After that my dad was not feeling well,
so i be the one who drive back home as mom lazy,
really lazy.

Then i saw a cab in red.(What the hell,cab of course in red!)
The driver so like driving so carelessly.
He drove like not stabily,so dangerous.
I was behind him then after that i slower down,
in order to let others to follow him.
Do really take care especially driving.
Bye peeps

2009-07-13T23:27:00.002+08:00

Heyy peeps,i just cut my fringe in the afternoon.Well,there are some compliments,so far i still can accept.It's my choice to cut it the way i wanted not cut for anybody else.

Will be updating my latest photos and the Singapore outing with my gals.

Good night!

2009-07-07T18:01:00.015+08:00

Today,i am back with a longgg entry.
First,i want to blog about the gathering.LOL
Met up with Jean the week before,she's prettier again.
When can i become prettier?*grins
We went neway to sing,felt so release to be with her,
we chatted alooot and crazy.

Haha i always camwhore then purposely took her singing picture

LOOK!I said i was camwhoring

Last friday,went to boyfren's grandma house.
HIs grandma house looks alike to a nursery.
There are so many plants and even rambutan tree,we plucked the rambutans!

Can you feel the rambutans?
LOL

This was my idea but then after boyfren know about it,
he actually posed for me.

Look at his butt,funny

Here you go,another bucket with grandma

Look at the shape this plant,
you will notice the different.

When i saw this,i was like asking boyfren's mother what is this,
then she answered me:i don't know ehh'
LOL

Pink colour seeds/flowers,
whatever,
they look like birds!

Then,after plucking the rambutans,we felt so itchy over the bodies.
Boyfren's grandpa told him that there is a plant can stop the itchyness and he actually tried.
He demonstrated it!

First,he plucked one of the leaves of the plant

The plant looks like this
Suddenly feel that this plant look alike to the bamboo

Then,he squeezed out the juice and applied it on his hand.

I bet the juice can be seen now,the white juicy

Only then,washed his hairy legs.

Hahahaha

Now,he turned into a monster.
The aloe vera monster of the day

We were so tired

Haha i was like camwhoring in front of his mother,grandma and grandpa

Then we left to buy Macdonald,yumyum

Hehe,i did something marvellous/fabulous for boyfren.
I use my talent and intelligent to help him to apply the carbon sticker,
on his netbook,the cutie netbook.
Although there was imperfect,he still loves it so much.^^

So niice right?
I know,thanks
haha

I like this angle
So cool

Yea,that's all.
I believe the next post would be the gals' outing in Singapore!
It would be fun,i am sure!
Off to dinner,bye!

2009-06-30T13:11:00.013+08:00

Today is 30th of June,a special for me.Back to 6 months ago,Christmas that day,i was back to jb from Singapore.I bet I would not forget that day.

We got in touch after the first time we chatted in msn and he caused me being late for my outing with my friend.I knew it was quite ridiculous that because of a stranger.However,it was how we became a pair.

First,i thought we would not contact anymore after chatting in msn.I still could remember clearly that me and nii went shopping and i kept on sms-ing with him till i caught nii's attention only i stop replying.

That was how we started.We do not really know each other.The first time we met,i was so kan chiong.Yea and YJ Chang,you know what you did,so we shall not reveal here ok?

Till now,we have been together for six months.We went through some difficulties.However,he told me that we could only celebrate our anniversary the third year!Arrghh!So badddd right?Never mind,just listen to him,be a good gal and keep waiting.

The feelings will never be gone.We are getting better and better.Time really flies and we really improved!I appreciated the things you had done for me,it's lovely!Keeping you by my side,i feel so happy and without worries.You will always try your best to cheer me up.

Boyfren,i love you :D

Blog until here,suddenly i remembered the video you made for me.I was touched that time but then i did not know how to face you.I was not ready to fall in love as i do not want to be hurt again.?However,now you have proved me that what is happiness.Thanks boyfren.

If someone were to say i am not a good galfren,i would admit but i knew you would disagree with me.
If someone were to say you are not a good boyfen,i would admit too because you are a great boyfren.

2009-06-09T23:34:00.002+08:00

I have been working continuously for almost five days.It's tiring.Anyways,i met many stupid customers today.They have completely spoiled my mood for time being.

Around afternoon,i think 3 plus,there was a guy who stated that he is an officer in any government service.I was trying to deal the business with him then he told me something very fabulous.

(The communication below was in malay,i translate into english as someone cannot understand)

Me:So this is the fixed price,do u still want it?

Stupid guy:Cheaper larr,******(his occupation) also cannot cheaper abit?

Me:This is the nett price.No matter who also the same.

Stupid guy:If u give me cheaper,i can take a look after your shop.

Me:The price is still the same with others.

END

I was thinking that what if you are the ******,and what if i can give you any discount?!It was so ridiculous.Although it was not first time of demanding for discount but then he shouldn't use his occupation to do that,am i right?

Everyone is trying to earn more money for their family.As i know,the guy is doing so too.However,they never try to respect the other people.Seriously,no racist discrimination.It was just my opinion that why he said so.I felt so shameful.

Ok,done with my story.I am still fed up now.

2009-06-08T01:13:00.004+08:00

My mood totally sucks!!!

Trust me,please,ever don't doubt.
From the day i got to know you,i knew we are fated.
We went through the obstacles.
However,facing another.
I feel hurt,totally hurt when you start getting on suspicion.
Just let me sleep and heal.
I still love you,boyfren.

2009-06-03T23:30:00.003+08:00

Hey peeps,long time no see.It has been a long time,really a long time since my last entry.I am back again as my exam had ended few days ago.I am happy though not really.Do not ask my why,i am wondering too.

You know what?I noticed everything is not that smoothly,it's not what i am thinking or what i thought it would turn out to be.I've realized we have changed,a great and huge change.Anyways,we shall be going different ways,maybe.I am just sincerely hope that a friendship would not be that fragile.Love is fragile,i can understand,but not friendship please.

I cherish the friendship i am having with anyone.I doubt it can be easily broken up by anyone else and i hope someone would not be that free or even silly to do that kind of things.I dislike what i dislike.I do not need to force myself to like or be friend with anyone.There were a few times that some friends told me after they get along with me.They told me i was so arrogant at the beginning.Yea,i didn't deny as it is the way to protect yourself from others.At first,i think that i do not need to do anything to plead for friends and just friends!Maybe you can but seriously i cannot.

Anyways,stop complaining.If you want someone to love u sincerely,wholly or completely,please do start to love yourself.I love my friends and i hope they can feel it with heart.Babes,long path to go.

So many things happened in the past few weeks and i've decided to blog them out one by one,hopefully.My coach,camera,my boyfren's birthday,gals' outing and so on.Give me some time,i will do it fast.See you!

Good night world!

2009-04-29T14:42:00.003+08:00

COACH MADISON LEATHER SLIM ENVELOPE WALLET

COACH Hamptons Signature Slim Envelope Style

Both coach wallets but then i just find it hard to make my decision.I like both designs actually especially the magenta.However,i find the black one more classic a bit.Eew,have to make a decision no matter what.I decided to buy black since i already made a wish last night.

U guys know how funny my boyfren was for last night?He messaged me and told me to make three wishes like how u make wishes for your birthday!Haha it can be under different categories.Then,i did according to what he teached me.Then,we webcam and he actually pretended to call the myterious person to help me makes my dreams come true!He's so cute i think.

My thinking skill lecture has ended on monday!It was like finally to end it.Well,since i attended thinking skill then i shall not argue/quarrel with those brainless one right?Don't be too exciting when people doesn't want to approach u back!Be confident,smile to face difficulties!JM won't be giving up so easily.

I am glad to have friends around me.They will cheer me up whenever i am down or unhappy.It's important to have friends in your life.Do not ended up like u are only living for your boyfren but yourself!My friends treat me well.We will have different way of communication.Alright,instead of friends,i shall talk about classmates.It's the crucial point when u are in school.Do not ended up being boycott.Do not be selfish or that inappropriate in school.Well,i am glad i don't have this kind of problem,do you?

Next issue,i have a good boyfren who treats me really well and the most important is,i am not a substitute to him.I feel happy whenever i go out with him because i could feel that he's very protective towards me.His caring,his love would just make me smile when i think of it.I love him and he loves me.

Now i am loving myself and friends,why don't you start too?Get yourself ready!Stop gossiping when u have nothing.:D

2009-04-25T22:20:00.002+08:00

I have tried to face the issue yet i failed again.I wonder when i could succeed.Whenever i think of that particular issue at night,i will just cry in the silence and hide myself in the blanket.I knew if i bring out the issue again to them,i will just receive some negative advises again,like last time.Therefore,i already chose to be alone to solve this issue.

However,i can't stop thinking of it especially recently as so many people are discussing.I knew if i don't make a start,there is no beginning.I tried and i failed,kept on repeating for many times.I knew how stubborn i am when i don't listen to your advise,but please pardon me,i didn't mean it at all.Tonight,i feel so annoyed to face this issue again and again.I hope i can just give it up like how i gave up on accounting.Yet i can't.It's my responsibility to get it to be done.Sigh.

I don't want to take your advise because i think it is really not the best way to solve the issue.I knew you are trying to help me to solve the issue.I knew you brainstorm a lot just for me.I knew it,trust me,i knew it.I also hope that i can just do according what you've told me just now.As i said,i will face it when i have the extra.I don't want anybody to be unwilling,you know?Anyway,thanks boyfren.At least i know u will by my side.

Sometimes i really hope i could get the thing i wanted so much through an easy way.JM,stop dreaming,please face the reality now.You will have to make a decision real soon,do you know that?Please,try to solve it by using the best way.

For time being,i wish to be alone...

2009-04-24T22:27:00.005+08:00

Since when was my last happy meal?
I suddenly remembered something.I think it was last year,and one of my coursemate was fallen out of love.I tried to console her and asked her to have happy meal.I know,it's not everyone's favourite to eat Mcdonald but me,and maybe elaine too?!Anyway,whenever i am unhappy or under stress,i would think of this happy meal.To me,happy meal is some kind of food and toys to make u feel more happier than actually u are.So now,i am so craving to eat Mcdonald happy meal and steamboat.However,the weather is too hot to forbid me to eat steamboat.So,i shall have my happy meal first.:D

Friends are meant to be.My babes,we could not foresee each other's future,but i hope we will remain as friends forever.There was once i do not believe in friends as i was in my secondary school.However,now i need u two.

I enjoy the time 'sticking' together to one another.Although it would make an eyesore to somebody else but we would not care about it.I enjoy the time we go shopping and watch movies.I think there is one similarity for us.We seriously hate stalking!We were always stalked by one idiot stupid useless guy.I enjoy the time we speak out our true feelings.Babes,it's been a long time since our last gals' outing!I enjoyed it everytime.

Exam is coming real soon.Oh ya,i watched coming soon with my boyfren last night.I screamed until so terrible,but anyway,i wouldn't even care about it.I am not those kind of lala girls.Ok,back to topic,i am already mugging hard to all my books.I seriously love them for time being,and i hope they will love me too.

Now i am at the top of the cliff.I don't know which way to choose,either this or that.I am confusing.I hope the problem could be easily solve,but not.Sigh.

2009-04-18T00:07:00.002+08:00

Do not wonder why i publish this post.
I just want to vent my anger out.
It's because will be having classes on sat and sun!
OMG,pleeeease.
Seriouly mood swing.
Waving bye to my weekend...

2009-04-15T13:06:00.003+08:00

I was doing my law assignments just now and i was so stressed so decided to blog out my feelings.I'm okay with the assignments even if they give a lot because it can help us to improve our writing speed and the structure of the question could be better.However,i am having a very big question mark actually.Why choose sunday to be the replacement?Then saturday we will be having extra classes.Oh my god, can u imagine that u have to go to school everyday?It's so tiring.Sigh.Afterall,i will attend the classes,no choice.Pray hard.

Well,enough of crap.Recently i spent alot on clothes.I am now trying very hard to wear all the clothes/pants/dresses in my wardrobe.U could not imagine how pack is my wardrobe now.I have to keep them in another small cupboard already.Anyway,i will still spend again,very soon.

I've wasted 15 minutes here and i have to go.Heyy peeps,take care!:D

2009-04-13T22:36:00.008+08:00

Boyfren bought me a huge mickey mouse.It's not huge just a big size mickey mouse.My niece loves it alot then ask boyfren to buy another one for her.Haha nowadays the kids really brilliant!However,she was so embarrassed to look at boyfren everytime.I just felt she's cute.Hence,i m cuter.LOL

Thanks boyfren!I think because of this big size mickey,it borught alot of troubles to u all the way carried it back from singapore.I adore it!I hug him to sleep every night.

Both of them are so ah lian

As yap nini was down on that day because of something then we asked or invited her out for lunch and shopping!First,we gathered at roost then headed to cs.Actually we didn't have the shopping mood at all because we can even regconize the road if we close our eyes to walk.Eew,then i was in a hurry to meet boyfren so i bought them half dozen of J.Co donuts and hald dozen for boyfren.Gals, i miss u.

I didn't forget the happy days we had and what we going to hav soon.Two more months and we have to be separated in different ways.However,i believe no matter what happened or what obtacles that will prevent us from meeting each other,we still could hav alot of ways to contact!Maybe i will be a little bit mushy,but i still want to speak out loudly that i love u gals!:D

Spent three days with boyfren last week.I actually spent most of the time sleeping!I know he would adore my beauty sleep pose.Am i right,boyfren?!!Now only i realised we didn't take any photos!How can it happened!??I don't care,he's going to satisfied my cam-whore habit this coming thursday and friday!

I enjoyed the time being with u.Whenever i think of how we met each other,i would feel like laughing out loudly.I couldn't believe it became the reality of our life.Thank you.

2009-04-06T02:20:00.003+08:00

I feel the pain again tonight.I shed because i finally know the feelings in his mind.I used to be so selfish as i just care about myself.I knew i shouldn't behave like tat but i couldn't control.When i first got to know u,i don't even think that we would become an item.As u said,fate is predestined.

It's good to feel your words again.I really hope u would stop pampered me for time being.I really hope everything can change to be better.Whatever we need,we can try to make some amendments right?However,if u never speak out what u exactly want,it's hard to make a guess.I thought i would back out easily again but i didn't and i don't even know why.Is it because the reasons u made me love u so much?Or u really become part of my life so can't live without u?

I've thought over and over again.I knew what i should do right now just to feel the happiness again.Stop quarrelling and start to improve the relationship.Try to find out the problems and solve it together.I believe we can do this as long as we still loving each other.I don't know when will be the last day for us,but i hope it wouldn't appear at all.

I am not good at words and especially in chinese.I am sorry but i know u hate my apologise.Sigh.I hope i am still the one belongs to u right now.Love u,baobei.

2009-04-03T12:28:00.003+08:00

It's friday and i have to work tomorrow.I am so unwilling to move on to tomorrow.It's quite boring actually when u have to face the person u are sick to see.Never mind,i will just take it as an exercise.Just want to complain abit abit.

Now my dear boyfren is having his nap.Yea nap,ur eyes do not have any problem.It's only twelve something and he actually taking a nap!!!So,now u noe how bored i am.Gosh i will destroy his nap later.Woohoo

My a level going to end soon and which means i am going to graduate the course after june of this year!It's not a happy thing because my frens and i might be going separate ways.I know i will definitely miss them like hell.Anyway,we can still contact each others through msn or sms right?Exams are coming soon,really soon.I supposed to do my TS past year now.Got to go,bye peeps.

Are u a optimistic or a pessimistic?

2009-04-02T01:57:00.001+08:00

It had really been a long time since i last entered into blogspot.I am here back as i knew that my chinese did not really improve that much ever since i join wretch to write in chinese.Heyy don't laugh pls!I am serious.

Well,it's 2am in the morning yet i couldnt sleep.Therefore,i am here to create a new blog for myself and my life.First i thought that my boyfren already slept but now then i noticed he didn't!Now questioning me in msn.I think i have done something wrong.

I don't know the thing that i m doing is right or wrong.I supposed to be who i am but i seem that i have lost my soul.I missed the laughters i had during my sec school.The atmosphere would never ever bring u down.Friends,i miss u all.

It's really late now and i have to sleep,if not,boyfren is going to nag me.
Boyfren,good nite.
Good nite,loves.