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Saturday, October 24, 2009 10:47 PM

I lost the interest of blogging recently.
I was quite busy with don't-know-what so i didn't intend to blog.
When i wanted to blog badly,there's nothing to crap,at least for me to crap.

However,i'm here today because i feel upset and wanna apologize.
I know whatever i wanted to say you will claim it useless or nonsense.
I don't know is there any ways to let me express out my feelings again.

I'm sorry for what i've done to you for the past or now,this moment.
After apologizing,i'm stuck with tons of words.
I hope i have the chance again,and i know i've gained the chance again.

You still remember the story of the McD glasses?
That's my little secret which i think it's meaningless to you already.
I don't know whether you still have the efforts on me or not as i know you feel disappointed at me for what i had done.

Again,sorry.I hope you read this.
I do not need your understanding towards this issue.
I would rather you blame it on me,at least i would feel released.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009 9:27 PM

13 OCTOBER 2009

A memorable day for the three of us as we were all in the emo mode.
There was a common feature which is due to family.
Be it serious or not,we would be upset or unhappy definitely.

If you were to ask me why do we face that problem always,i would answer 'i don't know'.
I've met so many people in my entire life and i don't see the reason though i wanted to understand them always.

Today,i'm in a depressed mood again,no longer the smiling face.
I wonder what's wrong with me and where did the problem lies on?

I've been thinking over the same matter yet i couldn't get the answer!
I'm not satisfied with the answer,i'm not i'm not i'm not!

This week is a hectic week which makes me feel that i'm lack of oxygen in my brain and i hope i could sleep forever.
The schedule is tight until i cannot find a day to relax myself!
I need a rest please!

Tuesday, October 13, 2009 8:14 PM

I cannot withstand the pressure from outside,especially my family.
At least let me do something whati wanted to,not forcing me not to.
Once i thought my problem can be disolved yet i didn't and now it came back again.
How many times do you want to doubt my ability?
I admire others as they can do what they want,pursue their dreams/aims.

I feel lost,i'm depressed,i'm down!

Who knows the ugly truth?Me,myself with my fragile heart.

I sprained my neck on Sunday so i skipped 2 lectures today.
Intended to attend school last night but then when i woke up this morning,i cannot endure the pain anymore.
I couldn't even turn to 90 degree,the first thought was like 'am i going to die?'
Then i gave up insisting going to school and had a sleep before i can go for any treatment.

Around 10 something,my mom woke me up and informed that there's a malay woman coming later to help me massage.
I refused at first because someone is coming to fetch me to watch physician then i had no choice but to let her come.

I was like screaming all the way when she massaged me,it hurt!
Moreover,i hate people touching my neck area or to tickle me!
I hug my mickey and bite his hands,nose and ears,so now all my saliva!

I'm feeling better then go out for a walk with someone.
I wanna thank that someone with my sincerity.Yo know i know ok?
Our dear secret we must keep it well.

My neck,still hurts.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009 9:47 PM

It's 9 plus now yet i still haven't even started to revise back my Criminal Law as there is a test tomorrow.
I'm wondering what am i anticipating for,i feel the joyous.
On the contrary,i feel the sadness too.
What's wrong with me?I supposed to enjoy my day well yet now my heart fell into a trough.
Depressed mood misled the concentration of revising!
Changing your thought of stubborn is not the work of a single day.

You are running at a great risk,when are you able to notice it?
Be it you care or not,that's the fact to face and be more realistic from now onwards.
Grasp the initiative when you think you might take it for granted one day.

What you thought isn't strong enough to pull you down from the 'high position' that you think you are in.
The thing that you wish is impracticable and so stop dreaming about it!
It is irrelevant with your future and just move on with your so called willpower.
Do not be pessimistic,buck up in doing everything and the God will eventually giving you something better.

Ooops,i'm writing nonsense again.Although it's really crappy but it's quite meaningful.
Recap all the things and realize i'm such a loser.

Monday, October 5, 2009 11:41 PM

Hmm,i've got myself to contact with a primary schoolmate again!
It was so surprise as we met each other in facebook,
and i've been chatting with him on msn for a few days.
We bullshit a lot,and he asked a question that am i a nerd as i'm studying law.
I told him i'm not yet he doesn't believe at all.

Then i was chatting with him just now and i told him i have to go and take my shower first and he drew this to me!
It's quite meaningful as we just re-contact and we still able to remember each others' name!
How great it is,isn't it?
Be it you like it or not,it's just one art piece.

Hmm,either mee rebus or mee hoon kuay?
I hope to have both which i think it's quite impossible.

Alright,i've just promised them anyway.I can have my mee rebus on Saturday wih my mom.
Just bear with it,ok?

I've made up my mind,a serious thought.

Oh ya,someone don't get jealous bah.Just endure for a little time,i promise.
I wanna have fun with you again.

For my two beloved frens,i think you might as well delete your blogs!
Not updating or what,so slow.
Just don't ever complain about me next time!

Sunday, October 4, 2009 12:03 AM

Happy Mid Autumn Festival!
I've been waiting for this day to come as i can have bbq again!
I'm seriously addicted to bbq,can anyone please rescue me from that?!
Hahaha,i doubt there is.Just don't stop me!

Was tired and i hope someone would be around me now to hug me and coax me to sleep.
I love these two days!
I had fun,and totally forgot about my assignment.*phew
Have to rush it out tomorrow,studying is not easy,reading is insufficient.

Met a lot of my primary schoolmates on facebook!
It's a good thing to re-contact with them,at least i'm still able to know how are they or what.
Haha,it's hard to meet friends and hard to become close friends.
Usually,i wouldn't bother about it,lalala.