Saturday, April 25, 2009 10:20 PM
I have tried to face the issue yet i failed again.I wonder when i could succeed.Whenever i think of that particular issue at night,i will just cry in the silence and hide myself in the blanket.I knew if i bring out the issue again to them,i will just receive some negative advises again,like last time.Therefore,i already chose to be alone to solve this issue.However,i can't stop thinking of it especially recently as so many people are discussing.I knew if i don't make a start,there is no beginning.I tried and i failed,kept on repeating for many times.I knew how stubborn i am when i don't listen to your advise,but please pardon me,i didn't mean it at all.Tonight,i feel so annoyed to face this issue again and again.I hope i can just give it up like how i gave up on accounting.Yet i can't.It's my responsibility to get it to be done.Sigh.I don't want to take your advise because i think it is really not the best way to solve the issue.I knew you are trying to help me to solve the issue.I knew you brainstorm a lot just for me.I knew it,trust me,i knew it.I also hope that i can just do according what you've told me just now.As i said,i will face it when i have the extra.I don't want anybody to be unwilling,you know?Anyway,thanks boyfren.At least i know u will by my side.Sometimes i really hope i could get the thing i wanted so much through an easy way.JM,stop dreaming,please face the reality now.You will have to make a decision real soon,do you know that?Please,try to solve it by using the best way.For time being,i wish to be alone...
